It's time for me to slap myself awake.

ok, Poly life is so fun, so so so fun that i totally neglect studying.


i use to be that uber hardworking girl that can sit down to memorize 4 essays at one shot, camp at mac for 7 hours straight to complete 22 chapters of physics and mug from 10am to 6pm everyday.
but ever since i step into poly, i can barely rmb myself sitting down for more than 3 hours just to study omg kill me please.

and those urgency are so dead that i've totally lost the touch of organising outings OMG.
ok, i know that i organised tons of class/section/clique outings before, but now im just waiting for ppl to organise and it's like WTH AM I THINKING. LAZINESS KILLS.

i totally lost the urgency and idk how to find it back ):


and thinking back at all the bullshit i had written on the MST papers, i should really go and bang the wall, jump off the building or smt.
i didnt even bother to memorize anything and the qns are damn bloody straight forward can.



i shall stop watching glee.
although im just 3 episodes from completion, im not going to watch glee.
UNLESS I COMPLETE ALL MY ASSIGNMENTS.


and oh yes, after 16 days from my last paper, i didnt touch my notes at all.
just went to pick those books up and im ready to chiong all the assignments tml.



Please let me find back that motivation.
that urgency to do things.



Someone, slap some real facts at me.